It's all a mish-mash...Things have been going pretty well over the past few weeks. I've been climbing a lot and I'm really psyched about that. My shoulder has been holding up pretty well...I'm getting ready man. In the not to distant future I'll be away at teacher training and my whole life will change. I'm super psyched for that! I filled out the teacher training application online the other day and got my registration number and made my appointment for a physical.

Today was pretty cool. I woke up did some cleaning and then headed off to the climbing gym with Rich and Kris...Overall I felt pretty strong today and was very happy at my improvement around seeing Heather and her boyfriend David. I've never met David but that is what people tell me his name is. He is tall and thin and likes to climb and ride his bicycle, hmm sound familiar? I got a good look at him this time and he doesn't look anything like me aside from being tall and thin. Anyway the both of them were moving around us throughout the day.

Wow! Kind of cool that I already hadn't created a post with the title of DISSED. It has definitely happened before you can count on that! Nevertheless here is a little story about being dissed:

Last week I was sitting on these big steps, right near my job, eating my lunch and talking to a friend on the phone. I was getting a bit annoyed because as usual I basically can't use my cell phone in Kendall Square. AT&T is definitively the worst cell service provider in the history of cell phone service. I had Sprint for years with no problem and virtually no dropped calls. AT&T NOT SO MUCH...

I woke up on Sunday feeling pretty crappy. The emptiness sitting in the bottom of my stomach like, well, emptiness. It was too early to really call anyone so I just read some email and tried to go back to sleep. Eventually I called my buddy Barry and we talked a bit and I told him what had happened on Saturday. He's a clinician so I asked him if he could refer me to someone in the Cambridge/Boston area. I guess I just think that I've gone as far as I can go alone with this.

Nice...day off of work yoga climbing and hanging out with friends. Not much more for me to say there except I really should do it more often.

Ahh words...in one way or another they are just silly manipulations of the truth. Better to remain silent and not talk. Most of the time it just seems like I'm stating my case. Maybe that isn't always true but I dislike it when it is.

So how to I be me? How do I truly be myself? How can I get outside of all of the bullshit and just allow everything to be?

I don't know. Maybe I'm not suppose to know? Do you?