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I did a 60+ mile bike ride on Sunday so awkward pose was pretty tough on Monday, but I felt pretty good throughout the class.

I got my cleaning done in record time. I didn't rush just focused on getting things done so that I could get home to rehearse my presentation.

This was a tough class. Heather was there and we were both in the third row. I have to make sure that if she is in the same class as me I'm not near her. It felt like all of my life energy was being sucked out of me. I think it is important that someone is in between us to act as a buffer.

For now I'm going to do my best to make sure I don't go to the classes that she is at. It is pretty aggravating since I've been going to the 8am classes (and I know she knows that) but she started coming too. I also know that she has other options of classes to go to but chooses to come to the same class as me. It is just as mean as her walking out on me, but at this point I'm glad she left because she is nothing more than a quitter and I've got no room in my life for someone like that.

I don't know I keep going back and forth part of me is like fuck her I'm not going to change my schedule just because she is a ruthless cold-hearted bitch, but then the other side of me says that I have to take care of myself and if it is bothering me I should do something about it by going to different classes. I have to remember to take care of myself and if that means getting as far away from her as possible so be it.

I was talking to my friend and I said "I hate her" and he was like "Good. You should hate her." The mother fucking door is closed and it ain't ever fucking opening. Now I just have to continue to give myself time to heal.